Evergreen road of life!

Evergreen is the road of life!


When life starts betraying,
And people go slaying your feelings,
Not understanding your heart,
They avoid your eyes and from you they move apart.
You feel left alone, all your emotions abort, falls a tear from your eye, expressing your grieved heart……………….
Whose music only you can hear.

When nothing feels soothing, time seems looting all the mirth…..
When only loneliness is in your shirt, mind sunk below in dark.
When there's no visible way to walk-
The wind is killing, even nature disturbing,
Movement of butterfly is no more thrilling.
The ears are collapsed, tears still marking their presence,
At times I‘ve asked why has been the life so unfair to me…..
And there is none to answer back…….
The GOD seems bad and soul a burden…….
And is useless the truthful turban of love and care,
That you wore as a ceremony for others.
Rise up ,move your head towards the sky,
And see the beautiful evening sunshine….and birds that fly……
It says to you…life is full of colors, the purity and divine status…..that can make you feel nearer to the FATHER……..
Never quit the hope to live,
Bear the flame in you of the trust and confidence,
That,
After every dawn is a coming dusk, every tear is a smile,
And after every single step are miles, that you need to walk on,
On the never ending, evergreen road of life!

YOU EXSIST IN ME!

who taught me to fly!

destiny floats over the horizon,
and fate seems to swim across the seas.
i glide in the sky, with wings offered to me!

you'll be here today! i feel,
i've been led to meet,
are u fiction or the trend of peace.

i flied through seasons,
setting-soughting-repeating reasons.
i am a fool to look for u out there,
you are the door opened after the first closed.
you 've made me from what i was into what i am.
when you' rn't with me, the picture goes wrong.

you enchant, gide and protect,
you are a cosmic smile to my fears,
a golden coincidence to melt my doubts.

we'll walk through , full of past , present and future,
we'll be each other.

every step i take is one step closer on a bridge we must cross to meet.
before it gets too long please!

share my prejudice and my passion,
tolerate my skimpy fashion!
i've a wish and power to make it true.

to bring anything into your life, imagine that it's already there,
so you will find your existance in me.
my glory mirror with flawless reflection.

i will........i surely will!

I cry , I kill
At times I am full, at times I am nil.

I smile , I bare
I am unique , I am rare.

I think, I reject!
When will they understand , I am NO object.

I plan, I fail,
With heavy shackles , poorly I trail.

I sleep, I glare
On the suffering ends are my flairs.

I hope, I distrust
I don’t find sandpapers to clear off the dead rust.

I walk , I don’t move
Out of efforts, still punching to prove.

I repent, I commit,
Successes and failures to HIM I submit.

I desire change, but I live the same
Then I wail, for people’s dirty games.........

I try , but I don’t act
Materialism is using me- is a fact!

I attend then pretend,
My worthiness, I myself suspend…………..

I enjoy, I sail
With my realistic trials, I am pale!

I can , I wouldn’t
I can’t but I will,

Rise up and see the sun of my will……….
In the mill of filling nil’s.

I love my life,
With all it’s knives.
With smiles and shares,
Sheer fragile tears.

YOU BE MY BELOVED!!

Why the wind is so quiet; sky so silent!
Why stars are so dim; moon without rim!
The breath of the wind is moist as if a loved one of mine cried.
A heart is in pain, making me insane, where are you? My beloved.
Pleasurable is the noise of silence, but your whispering is desired,
I have been waiting for you for long, my eyes are now tired.
I felt your pain; it came to me with rain.
Give your hand I want to hold, I save your love it won't be sold.
The devilish night is devoid of mercy,
The luxurious disturbance is lusty,
The pulp of softest dew, is how I feel when with you,
Frenetic calamity is disposing me to fantasize your fantasy
But,
Why do I sense you in pain?
It's something within you, you need to share,
Your monotony is grievous to bare.
My beloved speak to me; to hear to you I am on lease.
Release the tempestuous doubts you have, bury your loneliness; I promise to be with you.
Don't walk away, I am talking to you, look into my eyes they are yearning for your look.
I am ready to share your pain, and take your tears,
I waited just for you all these years.
I can't promise to dream your dreams,
But will always pray to my supreme,
That, even if I don't be a part of them, may they be fulfilled,
It's your happiness I seek………. For your life.
I love you pure; I wish I could be the cure, to your sufferings,
I hoped to be your strength; I wish my love could be your purple robe.
Hope ……never dies so would mine live till I die!
To always see you smiling, and throw away your miseries, to me.
My golden angels will guard you, as you are my BELOVED!!

THE UNHEARD TRUTH:

I AM not this! I am not this!
shouted the real me!
but the reel world wasn't glee,
on my desire to be the selfless me!

I want to be greedy,
but for others and not for me.
I want to break the shackles that hold me tight,
that hold me back from doing what I feel is absolutely right!
I am alone within a millions to fight…..
where the truth of my heart is out of sight.
the seeds of selfish greed, I want to resist their breed in me.
I want my eyes to be the mirror of acceptation, only obscenity to face rejection.
I want to see GOD'S reflection, in every living being.

I want to forward my hand to those:
who are looked down upon! [ Hit the most by adversities
I have a dream for disappearance of disparities to be summoned.
I suffer the monotonous glow, of the fake worldly blows,
the roads unseen and paths unwilled…….
wait for a stroller to know, the freshness of its way.]
I have a dream for vanishing act of disparities to be summoned.

I desire to be an individual, to be free from cruel social rituals;
I want the world to see the beautiful me.

The purity is unseen; the rhythm of life is unheard,
Bitter is the taste of life's curd;
The dusty eyes see the dust first,
The feelingless emotions are just lust!

The colorful patches of life are black and white;
With a silver string I am a transparent kite.

The minimal prejudice is to be thrown;
The adjacent power of love to be grown,
The enchanting wind and murmuring spring
With the finest ting's,to fill the life with treasure of pleasure.
The missing blocks are to be made,
Have to rescue the neck on _______ spade,
I want to be powerful like a poisonous jade,
To thy feet my life is laid.

With every change I loose a part of me; the very young life wants to be enjoyed as a ride on a cart,
Want to burst the bubble of jealousy in me.

Life is always on a run;
Realities take abrupt turns;
Repeated mistakes help you learn;
Why do the memories stay; the painful ones should get burned.

At times life is an unfair and unjust,
At times the instincts of self are difficult to trust
I wish I could I know what I am looking for
So that I know what I have in me to adore.

I wish to speak the never heard truth about self,
Which are sleeping in me in golden graves!
I wish to carve the sculptures that are superbly plain……..

The unheard truths are waiting…..waiting from long to be heard!

FaiLs To underStand. . . . . . .

the only question i don't understand- is- me ? myself?

my mind fails to understand why the turmoil persists when it cud be avoided

my mind fails to understand- why do i survive in dual personalities

my mind fails to understand- the wicked words of my cheapness

my mind fails to understand the truthful me!

my mind fails to understand- the hidden glow of darkness that my soul is in!

my mind fails to understand- that i would some day be out of this world not in the form of lost soul as it would stay but the forgotten memories of the last form i would stay with my body .

my mind fails to understand - why do i keep running from what i should accept

my mind fails to understand - that even when i know the weirdest realities why the insane mind fails to implement

my mind fails to understand - that when it understands all this, why still it fails to understand..............

what if we are different- it doesn't matter all!

Even if we are different, we must tease out those differences,
coz have can learn from one another at the most fundamental level possible,

It hurts to know that today I had hurt you!

I feel guilty for drowning your smile!

I feel guilty for tears in your eyes!

I am ashamed of showing the least expected to you!

I am ashamed of thinking that you have no clue, how badly that affects you.
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My head is hung in shame!

My heart feels like as a lame!

‘coz the things I didn't mean have hurt you in every possible way.

The very specific ways you talk and hear,

The very specific ways you adore and hate,

The very specific ways you stay with me, make me count for you!

It is now that I take you more than a friend!

I take care of what I speak, I don't want you to get hurt just for my sake!

I am ashamed of forgetting my friend in you!

Why couldn't I ask you to switch roles!

The everyday tales we share! I fail to ask for the loving soul you bear,

Things go wrong when all seems well planned,

There's a strong feeling that ‘I LACK'

Where do I go wrong that WE misinterpret, which WE know WE don't mean!

I wish to kill the differences before they kill me!

At times I enjoy being different, but at times differences leave me crying!

Oh! The heart is grieved to make an attempt to know all this!
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Anything and everything it wants to know is of- ‘it loves you' and you love it too!

THE DIFFERENCE .............

The world is heaven when you are around,
The craziness of heart looses it's bounds
I sing like a bird, laugh like a clown
I happily dance around the town
SUCH IS THE DIFFERENCE YOU MAKE TO ME.

You wouldn't think the way I do!
You aren't my soul, we aren't two!
The moment you kiss me, it's so peaceful inside,
All my troubles leave me and sit aside!
SUCH IS THE DIFFERENCE YOU MAKE TO ME.

You play he untouched notes of my life,
You blunt all the terrible knives,
It's so warm close to your chest
Your arms are the place where I rest the best,
SUCH IS THE DIFFERENCE YOU MAKE TO ME.

I would bow to you for a lifetime,
Your smile is my only prime
A place for me in secured in your heart
Is my journey to 1000 shrines in a cart
SUCH IS THE DIFFERENCE YOU MAKE TO ME.

The sparkle in your eyes is the light in my nights
The innocence in you is holy for every sight
Lovely is your heart, agony has no part,
SUCH IS THE DIFFERENCE YOU MAKE TO ME.

You would never let me fall,
Around me you stand as a wall,
You are very protective, very touchy, very comfy!
And you make my life colourfully patchy!
SUCH IS THE DIFFERENCE YOU MAKE TO ME.

Such is the difference u make to me-
Like no one would dare!
All the happiness and tears you help me bare!
You know me the way no one does!
Whenever you come, I become alive with a smily buzz
My colorful pearl…………….be the same
As the difference you make…………

Was

IS

And will stay…………………..

pArT-ii

Adorn the talents, seek the hooks,
Keep your eyes open, to measure the crooks.

Light the fire and be warm,
Be acceptable to all defective forms.

I will mount the defy,
With opened wings to envisioned fly,
What if I tremble mid air?
I’ll carry a stick – spare!
Vexed ambitions will stupefy,

With all burdens I still trot,
With smiles in all my plots.

When unhappy, I shall wail,
For I have my ships, of life , to sail.

I’ll be me!
I’ll meet myself again, with the ability maintained,
I’ll hop and sing, to you I’ll bring my friendship
Hmmmmmmmmmm, freedom tastes delicious,
I am waiting to be free!

pArT- 1

The day begins and ends,
And every normal human being has 24 hours got to spend!
If at times, wht this 24 and at times u just want more.
With a life, for an average period of 75 years to live,
in total- 27,375 days to live,
with a total of more of 100 individuals residing in a single body- is me!
A human full of aspirations and dreams,
victories and defeats,
with lovely smiles,
with fears and tears,
living adversities living to fantasies.

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I am a dreamer, a weaver,
A sufferer , and a sneeker.

I run , and hide,
Troubles and victories, all by my side.

I object, and ponder,
With atrocious subjects to linger,
With the circles collapsing onto me,
And charges rising,
I lay lifeless to all the wonders……..

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Sinking ships with broken links,
Horrified mind, suffocated blinks.

I plan, neglecting all bans,
Cherish my selected few fans.
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I will fly, nurture the dry,
Putting shyness at bay, I will walk the road,
Cross checking my steps, without turning back,
The wait to capture the treasures will be over.
The soul will trace them on the sly.

My eyes ! u filled them

It was from the day I saw u first, 
That u filled my life with the beautiful smiles of the world 
My soul rejoiced your presence, even in your absence. 
It was in your eyes that I viewed angels of golden heaven, 
U came to me, untouched filled with immense innocuous humility, 
Your comfortable arms filled my moment with tranquility. 
………..my heart u filled with love and charm and 
I always felt the extreme warmth that u held in your palms, 
For me………….. 
Your eyes still mean my world to me….. 
I wish I cud let these words out to you, like before…… 
But I did enjoy the pain u gave to me….. 
To have your rudeness made me feel glee………….. 
………………no feeling of mine goes untouched without u 
I miss u in everything I do, 
You entered on the wet floor of ma life, 
Which will harden with your footprints on it………… 
I promise, they'll dry as they are! 
My life has its meaning now as u r a part of it, 
I don't know my mistake for which u r now away from me….! 
But I know I still have a place in your heart 
U can't betray! I still trust 
Staying astray, only God knows for what? 
………….your adoration captured my mind, my body , my soul…….. 
My eyes! 
U filled them with a lot of hopes, 
With A relation that tied us together in golden ropes, 
My eyes! 
Feel your smile, and felt that pain whenever u slept crying 
My eyes! 
U filled them with happiness and gloss, 
Y did u thought me to be as a toy for u to toss………… 
My eyes! 
U filled them with a lot of dreams……I saw us crossing fiery streams…… 
But u left my hand in midway 
And today I stand alone……… 
I'll walk the stream by myself…..hoping that u wud someday call me back, or wud join me……………………… 
Now when I am alone! 
I feel sad for my eyes! 
U r nowhere to adore them ………and in the end u gifted to them a painful drop of sigh!   I'll love u till ma breath wud end, 
Recalling all the moments spend………….with you! 
May god give u every single thing u wish for……..

It's meaningful because of you !

It's meaningful because of you ! 
I was asleep that day, 
Deep in my thoughts. 
Was thinking who loved me the most!, 
The ditched heart, in pain was crying. 
Still thinking who loved me the most, I hoped to find it soon. 

I felt alone in crowd, and dead in all lives. 
Thinking hard to locate someone who would care for my life. 
Still thinking who loved me the most. 

It was a dark starry night, I walked alone on a lost road. 
Trying to search and add a meaning to my life. 
Still thinking who loved me the most. 

Above in the sky, it had 
Moon and stars for its company, 
And I cried alone down hoping, 
Still thinking who loves me the most. 


A ghastly dream, I want to wake up, 
But the pain is not letting me. 
Something ticled, it was the first ray of next day's sun. 
Something very fresh that made me insane. 
The way it held my hand, the way it kissed my eyes and lovedmy lips. 
The way it helped me get up added strength. 
I wish to sleep again to have a wonderful morning again. 
But my first ray promised, 
It'll never let me have bad dreams again. 
I wish my this wish to be blessed, 
Thankx for being the first ray of next  day's sun ……. 
Will keep you safe!!!!! 

your presence I am talking about......

I opened the dictionary to find the most beautiful word, 
That no one cud have ever heard….. 
To state your beaut…….. 
But it had no such word…that cud compete with your divine soul. 
Your simplicity is just too marvelous in itself 
Ur adoring behavior makes u more adorable dear! 
U r too amazing at solving complexities of ma life. 
ADONIS is the name I wud want to give u , 
The pleasure of living a life increases by having a friend like u ….for me it has really helped. 
………….your presence I am talking about. 

I opened the dictionary to find the most beautiful word, 
That no one cud have ever heard….. 
To state your beaut…….. 
But it had no such word…that cud compete with your priceless comfort. 
Ever since u has become a part of ma life, my friend….. 
I cherish living every minute of it. 
It's ur words that give a blow always when I feel low…. 
The warmth of ur eyes ma friend shelters me from the cold feelings around. 
Your smile has always helped bring me one to my face. 
The flame of optimism in u  makes me feel proud of having u as ma friend 
………….………….your presence I am talking about. 

I am sure u'll be a part of ma life……for long…. 
I am sure u wont flow out of it….like ma love……. 
I wont dare calling u an angel to ma life… 
Coz, they appear only in urgent needs…,

 but I want u to be a member of all things tht happen to me……. 

After their work is complete they fly off with their wings………

i trust u , u wont make me cry for contemptible things, 
U have a brilliant mind and far more reliable heart, where I will always be free to share ma sorrows…………… 
And                        

 will always give a fresh start…….. 
I know 
Your trust in me…..m not accustomed to… 
Gives to my zest a happy glue, 
U have by great gracious strengthened my will to live…… 
………………..it's your presence I am talking about. 

AdD WiNgS To YOuR ImAGInATIoN !

THINK ABOUT IT, 

Have you ever thought why? 
The sun rises from east and not from south. 
Have you ever thought why? 
The peacock dances when it's about to rain and hides when it rains. 
Have you ever thought why? 
Moonlight is cool and pleasant and not as that of sun. 
Have you ever thought why? 
Owl sleeps during the day and not in night. 
Have you ever thought why? 
GOD gave humans a succeeding ability. 
Have you ever thought why? 
The sunflower blooms towards sunlight. 
 Have you ever thought why? 
There are difficulties in our way to succeed. 
Have you ever thought why? 
There is competition in every field you see. 
Have you ever thought why? 
A rose has thorns. 
Have you ever thought why? 
Animals and birds don't speak. 
Have you ever thought why? 
Sky full of stars is far from us. 
Have you; I did. It's all GOD'S might. 
He wants his and ours earth to be bright…….. 
For us earthians to be as good as possible, 
Especially when others see it as impossible. 
For us to progress, to meet our golden success; 
He made difficulties and competitions, 
For us to learn to pleasantly turn, 
He made beautiful animals, singing birds and blooming and blooming flowers. 
For us to punctual and regular, to touch the sky. 
For us to be firm and mild, 
He glowed the sun and made a glossy moon.. 
For us not to be lazy, not to be happy crazy, he made thorns. 
He made all this beautiful  nature around us. 
Just to learn not to hungrily earn. 
Just to be kind, not to be a dumb and blind. 
Just to live and let live. 
Instead of wasting time , be a prime. 
There are numerous beautiful, amazing, interesting, imaginable and thinkable things than theses…….. 
So add wings to your imagination !